Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Still looking good!

R had our 2nd (un)official beta drawn Friday evening at 5:15 pm (34 hrs after the 1st). She was hoping to get the results back on Saturday - the lab IS open on Saturday, not on Sunday - but it didn't work out that way and we ended up waiting until Monday (today) for the results. Even then, she had to call the lab to get them! Crazy!

9dp5dt ~ 94

That's a doubling time of 34 hrs! I went back and checked... never in our 1st cycle did we have such a great doubling time. We did have one time that the value doubled in less than the "normal" 48 hrs, but generally it was significantly longer than that. So, this is GREAT news.

I found a study on the internet with published values - at 9dp5dt, the "average" hCG value is 95, with a low of 33 and a high of 233. It's nice to fall right into place that way! The likelihood of multiples is very, very small at this point - Bill continues to be very pleased with that!

The "official" beta will be on Thursday the 1st... supposed to be on Halloween, but R's insurance kicks in on the 1st, so she'll have it done in the a.m., after she gets off work. I took the values from the betas we've had done and calculated the "daily rate" - based on that, the 3rd beta (at 14.5dp5dt) should be between 800 and 1500. I know that's a crazy wide range, but I calculated based on both a 34 hr interval and a 48 hr interval (the internet calculator asks the number of days between betas, so I put in both 1.5 (actual) and 2 (calendar difference) which gave very different daily rates!). I can't wait to see what it actually is!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Looks like just one

R called at midnight last night - she was working and had finally gotten a break - it seems that every pregnant woman in a 100 mile radius had decided to go in to be checked!! LOL Anyway, she had checked her email and had the results of our first (un)official beta...

8dp5dt ~ 46!!

Before she called, she hopped on SMO and checked out the "Epic Beta Thread" (woo-ooo-ooo) - okay, so the sound effects are lacking in a silent forum, but I had to give it a shot - anyway, it appears that we are right in the middle for a singleton pregnancy. I looked a bit this morning before work and, while I found a few who had values this low and were carrying twins, the vast majority of multiple pregnancies were at least double this. My IM buddy, CA, got a 43 at 5dp5dt with her twins. So, it's a good bet that we're only cookin' one.

That made B happy. He called this morning on the way from his brother's up to NY and I gave him the information. I can't wait to see what we get on Saturday. I'm sure it will double, but am hoping that it will triple!! I want this to be a good, healthy baby!

Anyway, on another front, he got the bike without too much incident. Apparently the guy lives in the city, so they had to load the bike in the driveway and the ramp slipped as the rear wheel was coming into the van - so the bike crashed down on top of the tool box and that other thingy I can't remember the name of - and broke the screws or something. Then there was some sort of imperfection in the paint on one of the fenders, but his uncle's "guy" at the shop managed to buff that out (AND they fixed the thingy) so B's happy. B and his uncle were out "chasing wrecks" tonight when I called him. He's beat and has another long day ahead of him, but I guess he can sleep it off on Sunday.

I have to meet A at 7:30 at the Day's Inn here in town for the K9 Down course tomorrow. We have to go over the slides before the class starts (which I'm assuming will be either 8 or 8:30). We were talking this evening and he suddenly asked me if I'm comfortable with public speaking!! What would he have done if I had said, "Hell, no!"? I started laughing and told him that I could survive it - it's not my all time favorite thing to do, but when he approached me 2 years ago about helping teach this class, I kind of figured it would involve TEACHING! He's a trip!

Well, I've got to get up at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow, since I'm on my own here, so that I can get everything taken care of before I have to go to "work". I'm hoping that R will get the beta drawn early tomorrow and maybe, just maybe, we'll have our 2nd beta by tomorrow evening!

Friday, October 26, 2007

What do you take for a patience deficiency??

R was supposed to have her 1st official beta yesterday, but THANK YOU SO MUCH NCCRM FOR SCREWING THINGS UP AGAIN!!

She really only wanted to have 1 stick for the blood draw, which makes perfect sense to me. She and I only have so many good veins, so we like to limit the sticks whenever possible! Her progesterone level was due to be checked, so she planned on handling both of the tests at the same time. She's on 12 hour overnight shifts all week, so she got off work yesterday and went to the lab that she had asked our coordinator to fax the order to. Well, after waiting for them to open up (she got off work a little early), she found out that they didn't have the order. Thinking that perhaps they had faxed it to the other lab she used last time, she drove over there. Nope... not there either. So, she called our coordinator, who - of course - was not available at that time. Well, she's now tired and understandably cranky, so she leaves a message and heads home - takes E to daycare and crashes, thinking she'll deal with it after a few hours of sleep.

When she gets up, I guess the clinic had called and left her a message that the order has been faxed again. So, she picks up E and head back to the lab. Nope - they didn't get anything for her. WTH?! So, she calls back and gives her the phone number and fax number for the lab and tells her that WHEN she gets the fax sent AND confirms that it was received, she can let her know and then R will go back over there. That finally got worked - at 4 freakin' 45 pm when the lab closes at 5. Brilliant... just brilliant.

After working another 12 hour shift, R ran by the lab on the way home from work and had the blood drawn (luckily they had managed to receive AND hold onto the order) - but because it was ordered through a west coast lab, it will be run here locally, then they will send the results to the lab who will eventually email R with the result. "Usual" turnaround time - 24 hrs. Which would mean tomorrow morning - but you have to factor in that it's Pacific time we're talking about here. They probably don't get in until damn near NOON our time. By which time, sweet R will be sound asleep after yet another 12 hour shift! LOL! I just can't win here!

Ah, well - in the grand scheme of things, what's another 12 hours? I have more fingernails to chew! LOL I'm confident (ha!) that she will have the answer by the time she wakes up tomorrow afternoon. I may have only bloody stumps of fingers left, but she'll get the answer.

B asked last night what we're hoping for, in terms of a value. I told him that I'd be just about as happy with a 17 as I would be with a 70, but that he'd better hope it's under 100 - otherwise he may be in for some SERIOUS trouble! Seriously, the range for "normal" varies so widely... it's all but impossible to predict based on numbers unless you get something crazy high like in the tens of thousands! We won't really know until the ultrasound.

B left this morning to get the new bike - he's staying with his brother tonight and will head up to NY in the morning. He may stop in at his uncle's house on the way back, which would be nice. We don't get to see them that much. It would make Saturday's drive longer (coming home from Jersey), but would shorten the day tomorrow. It's about 6 hours, I think, from D's up to where the bike is, and only about 90 minutes back down to his uncle's place. He could get there mid-afternoon and hang out with them, then get up early Saturday and had back, and still get home at a reasonable hour. Their house is no further from here than Tuskegee is, and after the last drill, I left there at 3pm and was home before midnight.

It's finally 10pm, so I think I'll go to bed. I hate sleeping alone... I hate it when B's not here. Tomorrow I won't even have the boys here with me - just the furry critters!! But, I've got a house full of them!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Woo hoo!! It's "official"!

We have passed the "digital test". R gathered her courage and peed on a digital stick late this morning - and it said "PREGNANT"! She sent the photos through the phone, but I can't figure out how to download them yet (damn it!). I guess I'm not computer literate enough!

She has a class to go to in G'boro on the 14th of November, and is going to try to schedule our 1st u/s that day - we'll be 6w5d so hopefully we'll see a heartbeat at that time!! And I guess we'll find out just how many beans are growing in there... 1 or 2! I'm a little concerned only because we got a BFP just 4dp5dt!! Poor B will likely fall over if we see 2 sacs on the u/s!

Monday, October 22, 2007

OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!!

I got a call from R this morning... message said only, "Call me. Bye!" So I called her right back. She sounded happy, so I figured that she'd peed finally!! I had sent her a text this a.m. that said, "Dontcha wanna pee yet?? This is killing me!" Anyway, when I called back, she told me that she'd caved and peed on one of the old expired OSOMs that she had from last cycle, figuring if it was a BFN, she could blame it on the test being out of date!! Well, it was very faint, but it was positive nonetheless!

When I got home, I got this email from her -

alright i have a confession to make...insert sheepish smile...i peed last night also. the line was so faint and i had to hold it to light and turn it and squint and hold my mouth just right. i thought i was imagining it or it was an evap line. so i peed again this morning and again the line was painfully faint, but if i squinted just right and tilted the stick i could see it, but not quite as hard as last night's test. so i was a little hesitant to tell you until i was sure, besides i was using the old expired tests that i had left over. so, forward to about an hour ago, i peed again-yes, it is addictive- now the line is actually visible without any special maneuvers!! it is still light, though. so to finish my confession, I will pee again in the morning with a new test!

I caved, what can i say? but we had a very faint BFP at 4dp5dt..OMG!! YOU GUYS are having a baby next summer!! I can hardly wait to see what our beta is!

So, she's been testing since Sunday!! Just 4dp5dt!! She didn't want to tell me until she was SURE, but she's sure now. I told her to pee on one of the digitals that I sent her, but she's too nervous to just yet. Afraid that it will say "NOT PREGNANT"... maybe tomorrow...

Sunday, October 21, 2007

I swear this is the longest week ever!

We're officially 4dp5dt or 3w2d pregnant - B is having trouble wrapping his mind around that - how can we be 3 wks pregnant if the transfer was 4 days ago and the retrieval only 5 days before that? That's just the way we figure things, honey.... don't strain yourself trying to figure it out. I've already convinced him that there's "real" time and there's "S" time, now there's "pregnancy" time!

The 2ww SUCKS! Let's get that out of the way right off the bat. I'm dying here, waiting for confirmation of what we're confident is true - R is preggers. I saw a post on SMO today that she's found the pregnancy sticks. Guess S didn't do such a great job of hiding them, huh? She's still resolute about waiting until next Wednesday to test. How come she's got all of this self control all of a sudden?? LOL

Well, honestly, whatever works best for her, is best for us in the long run. Stress and/or worry wouldn't be good for the little bean, so best that she hold off until she feels sure that she'll get a positive. She's going to have a quantitative drawn that day, since they have to draw blood to check her progesterone anyway - but she had better pee on a stick that morning, 'cause we won't get the beta number until Thursday. Bad enough that I have to wait 3 more days!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Today was the BEST day ever!!

Well, I'm not even going to get into the story of the surprise birth of the chin baby when I didn't even know Twinkle was pregnant. No wonder she beat the crap out of Binki yesterday afternoon. My 13 yr old son now considers himself a grandfather (LOL) and has named the new little beasty (we think it's a girl - that still remains to be seen) Myst. He's decided that we don't have to sell her because obviously Binki is not her father (as we've only had Twinkle a month so she came to us preggers) so it wouldn't be "wrong" if Binki decided to do them both! OMG, now he's a chinchilla breeder!

And then there was the havoc in the fish tank - apparently that bitch of an angel fish decided that she wanted to eat the frog we just bought... he got away, but we saw him later with that little silver fish that stays at the top of the tank all the time, with an entire rear leg in this little fishy's mouth. The fish didn't do much damage... when B separated them, the frog swam away, but he saw the damn thing holding the froggie again later. I fear he won't last much longer. NO MORE fish. This is crazy. It's like high school clique in there - anyone new is beaten down and/or eaten!!

Now for the good news... well, yesterday I couldn't get ANY information out of the lab regarding my embryos. My biggest fear, of course, is that they had all died on the magical, mystical day 4 where they "don't disturb the embryos". I got up at 6am to get ready for the transfer and get the boys off to school.... all morning I was carrying my phone and praying it wouldn't ring. I did NOT want to hear "Dr. H... we're sorry, but all of your embryos are dead. Don't bother coming in today."

I left about 9am to head to Winston. We needed to allow at least 2 hrs to get from there to Cary and wanted to allow time to stop for lunch along the way. I turned up the radio, but then got paranoid that I wouldn't hear the phone, so I kept looking at it to see if the display was lit up - all the while praying that it wouldn't ring. About 1/2 way there, it did ring, and I suddenly got the urge to vomit. It was just R, wondering where I was! I got to R's shortly after 11am and we hung out chatting for a bit. Her hubby's new bike is just like mine, except it's an 1800 and black - but it's nice. She got me a beautiful bouquet of flowers that smell absolutely heavenly, and a kit to make a heart-shaped hand print keepsake when the baby's born!

Shortly after 11 we headed out to pick up E (her 4 yr old daughter) from preschool 'cause she was coming with us. She was so excited to be coming to the "special doctor's appointment" where they were going to "put B and S's babies in mommy's tummy."

On the way to the preschool, I hear my phone ringing. It's after 11 now, so I figure I'm in the clear as far as the embies are concerned. Certainly they've checked them by now and would have called if there was a problem. By the time I get the phone out of my purse, which is in the back seat, it has stopped ringing, but the screen says that the missed call was from B. I figure he's just checking on me and didn't worry - I was just going to wait for the voice mail to come through then listen to it before calling him back (it drives me nuts when I leave him a message and he just calls back without listening to it, so then I can repeat it all again!!). But, what I get instead is a text message that says "Call! 911".

Again, there's that strong urge to vomit!! So I fumble with the damned phone, and all kinds of thoughts are running through my mind... I had seen some type of incident in the parking lot of the high school this morning - assumed that either someone's car caught fire (turns out that WAS what happened) or 2 cars collided, so maybe First Born was involved and M was calling to get me to the hospital ASAP - maybe something has happened to one of the animals (like the time B knocked the top of Fancee's cage down inside and cut off the tip of that toe so that she damn near bled to death) - or maybe the clinic decided to call the house phone even though they generally call my cell... (yes, I know I have an overactive imagination! Always have, always will.) and, of course, since I need to make a call NOW, the phone is too damned complicated and I can't seem to hit the right buttons.

I finally hit the right combination of buttons and it begins to ring - he answers immediately. "What's wrong?" I demand to know. "You need to call the clinic right away" he tells me, "they just called." Oh, God... there is is again - that urge to vomit. "What's wrong?" I ask again. "It's something with my blood work" he says - and now I can breathe a little... He says that they just got the results today - he's positive for CMV and for Hep B antibodies (not the virus, just the core antibodies). He's been informed, by someone who's name he can't remember because he was panicking as they talked to him, that we will need to be counseled regarding this and R will have to sign an "informed consent" or we cannot proceed with the transfer - due to FDA regulations.

I hang up with him and call NCCRM. I get routed to several different people before a familiar nurse finally comes on the line and explains it to me. 75-80% of people in the US (and/or possibly the world) will test positive for CMV, which is an illness similar to mono. Then there's the issue of the Hep B antibodies - she has apparently questioned the laboratory and they cannot distinguish antibodies produced as a result of exposure to the virus from antibodies produced as a result of vaccination, and I know that B's been vaccinated - he spent 24 years in the Air Force!! They don't seem too concerned with it - but they have to comply with the federal regulations. We just need to talk to each other and to Dr. T before we can proceed.

All of this is occurring while I'm driving towards Cary. At some point, approximately 1/2 way there, we stop at a McDonald's to feed E. While she's playing, we start talking. R is vaccinated against Hep B because she's in the human health field. She figures she'd probably test positive for CMV also because she's been a nurse for over 10 years and has surely been exposed to it by now. I tell her that we'll ask Dr. T about any risks, complications, implications, etc. and if, for ANY reason, she is uncomfortable with this, then we will cancel the transfer, and I will NOT be angry with her. She has to do what is best for her, first and foremost.

We get to the clinic exactly at 2pm, but NCCRM is never actually on time. We are called into a consulting room at 2:30 and Dr. T arrives around 3pm. He asks if we understand what we've been told and if we've discussed it amongst ourselves. R asks if either of these is a risk to the pregnancy. No. Can she "catch" either disease from the embryo? Again, no. Dr. T says that not even HIV is transmitted from an embryo to the carrier. There's no risk here, but according to FDA regulations, she has to be informed. She answers, "let's do it." Now, nervously, I ask how many we've got. The lab tech consults her sheet - tells us that we're transferring 2 grade 4 "expanding" blasts today - there are 7 others she says, and those will be frozen. OMG!! 9 of the 10 made it to blasts?? Not only that, but 8 of those are "expanding" blasts (which is the highest level, and according to Dr. T, the BEST you can get!), the last one is simply a blast (which is pretty damn good anyway).

They send us back into the waiting room because they're not ready - it will be another 20 minutes we're told. Well, I guess 60 minutes is kinda like 20 minutes.... they finally call us back, into the same room as the last transfer. They show us the 2 embabies and I get my little picture... aren't they gorgeous??

Another 20 or so minutes and Dr. T comes in to do the transfer. While he's "prepping" R for the transfer, he asks about our last transfer... what day, how many, what quality? I give him the basics... 3 8-celled day 3 embryos, positive betas but not a viable pregnancy; all other embryos stopped developing after day 3. What was different on this protocol? he asks. Nothing, except that we used lupron as a trigger instead of hCG. This time, he says, we didn't cruise any days (skip meds on any given day). We didn't do that last time either... This time we did ICSI. We did it last time, too... So what WAS different?? he wants to know. I did acupuncture and took Chinese herbs this time... that's it. I can tell he's skeptical, but I don't care. I KNOW that made the difference. "You're 39?" he finally asks. "No," I answer, "I'm 40." He pauses for a minute... then says, "35 year old women rarely get embryos of this quality." Kudos to S at Acupuncture Center!! I am a believer in the power of Chinese medicine! I KNOW that she made this difference!

Anyway, he puts the 2 embabies in and then R has to lie there for an additional 20 minutes before she can get up and pee. Poor girl... she kept hearing the toilet flush, but she couldn't get up - it's like they were taunting her! Finally she is able to get dressed (and pee), then we come over to the good ol' Comfort Suites where she's going to finish out the day on bed rest. E and I went to McD's again (I promised her whatever she wanted 'cause she was SO well behaved today) and then pick up Chili's for R and myself. E is so wound up that it's nearly 10pm before we can get her to calm down and go to sleep. I had to get this written out, but now I think I'll turn in myself. It's been a crazy, hectic day! But, man!! It couldn't have been better!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

The embryos are still dividing

This morning the lab let me know that we're growing the embabies out for a day 5 transfer!! All 10 of the embryos are still dividing - 5 of them are 8 celled and the other 5 are either 7 or 9 celled. That's SO exciting! To me, it means that the embryos are of better quality than last time - in May, by day 2, they had already decided that they needed to do a day 3 transfer - so this is GOOD news!! The only issue is that I'm working Wednesday and Thursday... now I've got to get out of that. It's more than a bit rude to cancel last minute, and can mean professional suicide for a relief vet, but I'm not planning on doing any relief work in the near future anyway, so what's the worst that can happen?? They won't hire me again? Oh, well.... this is MUCH more important as Wednesday could well change my life!

I'm feeling much better today, as compared to how I've felt over the weekend. I made cinnamon rolls for B this a.m. and started the laundry. I was waiting on that call from the lab to plan my day, but now I can take a shower and do whatever it is I want to do. I really need to go to Fayetteville and get my Class A jacket to the alterations department so they can add the braid. I've got to have my official photo up online by next month, I think, to make the promotions board in January, and I don't want to miss out on that because of something stupid. It took them 6 months to get the jacket here! It had BETTER fit!!

I'm trying to catch up on some housework today. There's a ton of laundry to be done - I've been a slug these last 3 days. To be honest, I've felt AWFUL - today is the first day that I've really felt human. My belly is still a little sore, but there aren't the shooting pains that I've been dealing with the last couple of days, so that's nice. I guess I'm getting back to "normal" whatever in the hell that means.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

We've still got 10 little ones -

- hanging in there with 4 cells each. The 11th was only 3 cells this morning and they aren't holding out much hope that he/she will continue to develop, though it's not completely outside the realm of possibility.

On the GREAT side... the lab technician said that they want to discuss the possibility of doing a day 5 transfer instead of a day 3 transfer. To me, this says that the embryos are looking better on day 2 of this cycle than they were looking on day 2 of the last cycle - by this time in May, they had already determined that we would need to do a day 3 transfer. Statistically, I believe that the chances of success are higher when day 5 embryos are transferred. As Dr. Mulvaney told us at our initial consultation, after day 3, the embryos have to stand on their own, which means that they're stronger and more likely to survive. Not that that means a day 3 embryo can't make it - certainly they can... K and Amanda are living proof of that. They told Amanda that her embryos were dying, so they transferred the 3 of them on day 3 and K gave birth to twins! Whatever day we transfer, I still have good feelings... we'll just have to see what tomorrow brings. I'll be sending divisional vibes to the little embabies today!!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I got "the call" this morning

- as of 10am, we have 11 embabies. Dr. H himself called and said that they were able to do ICSI on 12 of the eggs that they retrieval yesterday, and that 11 of them had fertilized normally and were looking really good at this point. The lab will call back tomorrow to give us an update and let us know if we'll be doing a 3 day or a 5 day transfer - and that depends on how the embryos are dividing/growing. B says they're "percolating"! LOL

As for me, I've felt like shit today. I think it's just that I've been doing too much. I went to the Fall Festival last night, which made me very uncomfortable. This morning, I took the Shadow down to Steve Jones to have the oil changed and get it inspected - of course it couldn't pass inspection because I have rear turn signals, but not front ones. Apparently, in NC, you have to have all or none. Since First Born is riding this bike, I'd rather have 4 than none - so now I have to get turn signals for the front of the bike and have them installed.

At any rate, I'm afraid that I'm running a fever - at least I FEEL warm to myself. B says that I feel warm to him as well, so I'm lying here on the bed resting now. It's boring, but I think I've just done too much. Hopefully I can spend all day tomorrow just relaxing. Even though I've got tons of stuff to do around here! I've got laundry and cleaning to do - but I just don't feel up to it. I'm getting too damn old for this!

Lucky number 13

We got 13 eggs today! Not a fabulous number, but twice as many as last time. Dr. H said that it was EXCELLENT for me. However, on the down side, B's sperm count was low in this sample today (5 million) - that's because it had only been 36 hours - so we're doing ICSI on them all. I talked to Dr. H briefly about doing some of them naturally, but he said with the low numbers and the terribly thick zona around my eggs, that he didn't believe any of them would fertilize naturally and he didn't want to lose any of them. So, I guess we're doing all of them with ICSI after all :(. Someone from the lab is supposed to call me tomorrow with a fertilization report. Unfortunately, with it being Saturday, I can't call THEM to find out how my eggs did. I hope that they follow his instructions and call me. It's gonna kill me to have to wait to find out how many we have!

They're also supposed to call me on Sunday with a schedule for the transfer. Since we're only staying in Cary one night, B said he didn't think R should be driving (because it's stressful, she would have to sit upright, etc.), so I'm going to pick her up in Winston on Monday, drive her up to the retrieval, and then bring her back home on Tuesday. I think that will be nice... we'll get to chat on the way. It will mean a little extra driving for me, but she says that driving stresses her out, and we definitely want to reduce the stress.

I took the boys to the Fall Festival tonight, which was a little tough on me... I took a long nap after I got home from the retrieval - dragged out of bed at 4:30 and ran through the shower. We stayed until almost 8pm, and by the time I got home, I was really uncomfortable. Now I'm laying in bed and hoping that my insides will stop aching soon. B has been great about waiting on me - he's such a doll.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Retrieval today!

Oh, I am SO bloated/puffy this morning! I can't wait for them to deflate my ovaries!! I know that it won't relieve all of the symptoms immediately... the edema will take time to resolve - but it WILL alleviate some of the discomfort, while, of course, causing some of its own! LOL I don't have to carry this baby, or go through labor, but there is a price to pay for my contribution. Of the 3 of us who are "actively" involved, B has it the easiest by far!

I can't wait to see how many eggs we get this morning. I know that we won't get as many as CA (30) or as many as the IM in the posts I read last night (40) - but I AM hoping for significantly more than we got the last time. An even dozen would be WONDERFUL!! We'll see...

We're off to Cary!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Oh, my achin' ovaries!

So, today's u/s showed 18 huge follicles - 10 on the right and 8 on the left - with a couple of stragglers... no wonder I can feel the damn things!! Sometimes, just standing there, they start "pulsing" and they just ache!! Of course, with my ovaries being larger than baseballs, my entire belly is swollen. Don't get me started on the generalized edema!! Jus' call me "Sponge Bob-ette".

Today, my E2 was 1441 - so it's dropped just a bit from yesterday. I was instructed to do the ovidrel, follistim and ganirelix ASAP - then tonight at 10pm, I do 20 IUs of Lupron and the other 20 IUs tomorrow morning at 8am. No blood work or u/s tomorrow, just show up at 8:30am on Friday for a 9am retrieval.

I spoke with Dr. H today as well, regarding the ICSI. He's agreed to call me on Friday, after we get the eggs and he has a chance to look at B's sample - so we can discuss it before he does anything, and make a final decision at that time.

I talked to R today - she's psyched!! Tonight is her one "shot-less" night before she starts the big injections for the pregnancy. I get extra shots today... she gets none. I told her to enjoy it because she's in for daily injections for the next 12 weeks.

Just about ready to go

Today I had another u/s - my first since Saturday. My ovaries were just bundles of black bubbles separated by thin white lines - no wonder I can feel them at night; they've got to be the size of baseballs!! They measured 14 follies today - 7 on each ovary - and they were all "greater than". The nurse said that Dr. T may have me go one more day, or he may have me trigger tonight. When I finally got my instructions, they were to go ahead with the microdose ovidrel, the follistim and ganirelix and return for another u/s and estradiol tomorrow. Oh, BTW, my E2 today was over 2400 - it's nearly doubled since yesterday!! No wonder my boobs are so sore!

R & S came home from the beach today; they called from Rockingham to see if I was free for a visit - but I had to go do cats before I picked up Little Man so they went on home. Poor R said that her butt will never be the same!! Crazy chick - riding all the way to the beach on the back of a bike like that...

I really had NO free time today - I went from one obligation to another, starting at 7:30am and ending when I got home from the grocery store to cook dinner at about 7pm. It was a crazy day! Well, 2 more days of work and then I'll get 5 days off! Of course, it looks like my retrieval will be Friday am and we have the Fall Festival Friday evening. I've promised Little Man that I'll take him and he's SO looking forward to it, so I figure I'll get a nap after the retrieval and then suck it up and go to the school for a few hours.

We'll see what tomorrow's results/instructions are - here's hoping that it will be trigger day!! I don't think they can let me go too awfully much longer - some of my follicles were up to 25mm in diameter today. I'd hate to lose them to some type of spontaneous rupture from delay...

First Born came by tonight and we got out the bikes; I told him that I'd feel much better if I could see how he rides - other than viewing him from the driveway as he whizzes by!! Since my new bike doesn't have tags yet, I told him we couldn't leave the neighborhood - don't really feel up to getting a ticket! I rode in front up the street, then when we crossed over Gun Club, I had him go ahead so I could watch him. He is actually very focused - both hands on the grips the entire time - or maybe that's just because he knew his mom was riding behind him!! I let him take the bike back to his dad's tonight so that he could ride it to school tomorrow. I know how much he enjoys it - wish he could understand how nervous it makes me!!

Monday, October 8, 2007

Bumps and bruises...

I started the Ganirelix injections 3 days ago and now have some lovely bruises to show for my efforts. It's a 27 gauge needle, so that doesn't bother me - and the stuff doesn't hurt on injection... but I guess there's some tissue reaction because shortly after injection it begins to ache at the site. Within 10 minutes I have a hot, red lump on my leg at the site. It will be gone by morning, but I sure know it's there in the meantime!

I've been keeping track of my estradiol levels (as if I know what they mean)...

**on Day 1, before I started stims, it was 62; Eman said that they want it to be under 100
**on Day 4 it was 291 and I had 6 mid sized follicles and 5-6 "less than"
**on Day 5, my E2 was up to 601 and they decreased my meds slightly
**on Day 6, it was 1062, with about 10 mid sized follies and another 5-6 "less than"
**on Day 7, my E2 was 1138, and they upped my Follistim, but not the microdose Ovidrel
**on Day 8 (today), I was up to 1461, with no dosing changes on my meds

I go to Cary tomorrow for an u/s and bloodwork. We should be getting close to retrieval - within 4-5 days or so!!

R and S headed to the beach on Sunday for a little "couple time" before the transfer. They rode the bike down - poor R sent me a text message saying that her butt was numb!! Hopefully this upcoming "hiatus" will only be a couple of weeks. I think they ended up with about 9 weeks of no sex last time between the transfer, the shaky pregnancy and then the D&C.

I'm still exhausted all of the time.... I'm hoping that it's the stims and that it will go away after retrieval. I'm managing to drag through work - which isn't a great state of mind to be in given my profession - but can hardly keep up at home anymore. I guess I'm just getting too old for this hormonal crap!!

Battered and bruised -

That's how I feel. My legs are sore and bruised from the injections and I'm just exhausted all the time. I don't feel like I get anything done, and all I want to do is sleep. Thankfully this will all be over in less than a week. Today was just blood work at the hospital; same for tomorrow. I'm sure that I'll have to go to Cary on Tuesday for an ultrasound. Honestly, I was surprised that I didn't have to go up there tomorrow. But, I'm assuming that they have a "plan" for my cycle. I've come to the realization that I don't have to understand it, I just need to follow it.

We're really looking forward to the transfer next week! I have what may be my last acupuncture treatment tomorrow. I have one scheduled for Friday morning, which I will go to, as long as the retrieval doesn't end up being that day. In a way, I'd like to have the retrieval on Friday, so I can be with R for both days after the transfer - though I don't think that either of us believes that 2 days of strict bed rest is necessary. I've done a lot of reading about it... many clinics don't require ANY bed rest and many only do 24 hours of it. A lot of REs believe that movement increases blood flow to the uterus, thus increasing the chances of implantation - we both feel that she should be up and around, just gently, on the day after the transfer. We're in agreement that they're not just going to "fall out" of her uterus!!

Anyway... we'll see how things look on Tuesday and hopefully get an idea of when this will all happen.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Not really sure what's going on..

... but it seems as though they're not really thrilled with something - maybe my estrogen levels?? I've had more blood draws this time than the last. I'm guessing, based on what I remember of my last stim, but I think that maybe my follies are developing a little more quickly than they would prefer. I've got another 6 days to go, and today I had a follicle measuring 19x14, which may be a little large for day 6 of a stim cycle. I've been worried that they were going to cancel my cycle - which is a waste of a great deal of money - but they seem to think that it will be alright; at least that's my assumption, since we keep moving forward. The nurse didn't give me a value for my E2 today, but I know that it was 601 yesterday and 291 the day before that. I'll have to wait until Monday to find out today's value. I don't know if I'll get tomorrow's value on my message - depends on who leaves the message for me, I guess.

R had her u/s and estradiol today - the blood work probably won't be back until Monday, but her uterus was a 13 triple stripe, which is PERFECT... as if it would be anything else! Perfect "condo" for the babes!!